I think I know how the family of a person on trial feels –
Will he be sentenced to Live or Die!
This is what my thoughts have been the past 7 days ... What will the new tests show? How bad is Gene’s cancer?
Being married to your best friend for 48 years, you try to hide your deepest fears. Gene and I are both doing our day-to-day rituals but deep down we both know we are on pins and needles.
I am trying not to baby him but I keep watching for signs that will show me, "Yes, he does have cancer" – but everything seems so normal.
In fact, I know we both are being over-polite to each other, and each time I enter the room where Gene is, first I put on a smile as to not look worried.
My stomach hurts constantly – like someone has punched me – but I have to act normal and like I feel fine.
As I write this [last Monday, March 12], we are patiently waiting for Wednesday when Gene has yet another test: a PET scan that will show where the cancer is. And then Thursday is Sentencing Day: We meet the cancer doctor at 9 a.m. to find out the results!
I am so thankful our daughter, Cindy, came with us to the first doctor appointment with the oncologist. Dr. Ryan Ramaekers was so kind and caring and told us many options that we have. We can go to any hospital we would like and of course get a second opinion, and he would not feel offended.
We feel God gave us the right doctor to go through this ordeal.
Barbara, so happy you have found this outlet to help you mark your journey, hope it proves to be helpful to you and others who may be in similar circumstances. It will be a wonderful source for us who know and love you to stay informed and closer to you. We are all praying for all of your family, I am, particularly relieved that you have such good medical care so close at hand, I think being near hearth and home an important aspect to healing.
ReplyDeleteLove to you all,
Pat
Barb and Gene,
ReplyDeleteYou both have been on my mind so much lately. I've wanted to call, write and just didn't know what to say. I was thrilled to see this link on Facebook! I am sure that Gene is going to be a great AQHA President this year, and I hope that I get to catch up with you guys somewhere this summer.
You are both such strong individuals and my thoughts and prayers are with you through this part of your journey of life.
Love you both,
Lisa